After having worked hard on my own material, I decided I earned a visit to the new photography centre at the V & A. After all, I should keep abreast of the latest visual developments.

I thought I should describe those feelings when looking at work that might be okay but is certainly no better than mine. In fact, I feel that my images are more dynamic and innovative. So why is everyone ignoring me? 

I attempted to show my work to the curator here sometime back. I even handed him a brochure and viewer in person, when attending a lecture. Not even a reply. 

So there’s a ‘grrrr’ sensation welling up inside me, not exactly jealousy, because it’s alright those other artists being on display. It’s just that I should be there, too. 

Although I still make more money with the conventional work (and last month, three of my libraries actually paid me!), I find it relatively ordinary. A great picture is rare, a good picture, common. Perhaps the trick is to be first person to do an image, such as the great historical photographers of the past, or to do something different. 

The latter is me! I’ve taken an old technology and propelled it into the 21st century, as I often say. People are still fascinated with stereograms, as seen at the centre today.

My work is even more radical, taking the process three steps further, first converting to an anaglyph, then taking through a filter and then, often, an additional one. 

This feeling is like an itch at a place I can’t reach. It makes me squirm, a bit grumpy yet become very motivated. I think it’s similar to what happened at Pictor when my boss Alberto said my work wasn’t good enough. The reaction was, ‘I’ll show him!!”. In the case of my 3Ds, whom do I show? Whom can I contact whom I hadn’t reached before? Should I try the same people/organisations again, in case there’s been a change of heart, or a change in staff? 

I can’t decide if I should let it go, knowing I’ve made a decent living as a photographer and had an incredible - travelling - life, or if I should really fight. I believe my anaglyph images should be seen - they’re a true step further in the use of photography. They also should fit right into this new Virtual Reality world. They’re a low tech and very inexpensive version. As the notes at the relevant display at the V&A say, ‘Stereograms were an early form of virtual reality.’

I just received my partner’s text answering my earlier message of whining. ‘Grrr’ he replied. My thoughts exactly...